Manic or nah?

Hey guys! I don’t know if anybody actually reads this stuff, but I’m here. I’m alive. I’m “well”? I have done a lot and done nothing at all, as always. I'm also sick and tired, sick and tired of being sick and tired. So I'm changing. Changing into something that has been calling me for a while now. I will allow myself to have those experiences and to be honest with myself and with others and honestly, I just wanna do. I'm tired of fucking thinking. I'm tired of my job. I'm tired of not taking care of myself. So, all that changes tonight. For example, I just got my nails done yesterday and there's one nail on each hand that I really don't like, so I'm gonna get it fixed. This is nothing drastic or super super spontaneous but I'm just living day by day doing the things that I want to do. Because throughout my whole life I've been doing things that I feel like I need to do or things that others want me to do or I will consider others more than I consider myself. And that shit sucks after a while. What about me ho? Anyway, I am here just to let anybody know. I will continue to write. That's another thing. I haven't been writing. So I am making an effort to write every day. So, you may see me more on here hopefully. And if anybody is actually reading this, yes I may be manic or I may not be and this may just be me, but wait it's always me. Anyway, I love you. I love me. I'm trying to know God more. I'm trying to know myself more. I'll be back, peace!